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  • The True Meaning of Following Your Dreams

    A photo that was taken 2 years ago.

    Back in Laos, while some Canadians was sipping Lao beer, I said I wanted to become a photographer.

    What happened?

    Fast forward five months: still unemployed, but I recently volunteered as a videographer for an all-day beach event. Even though I didn’t get paid, I loved every second of it. When I excitedly shared the experience with my mum, her response was classic:

    I shared my experiences with my mum, telling her how excited I was. Her response was,

    “When can you turn these skills into money?”, she said.

    The rationale behind it

    I wasn’t surprised by her dispiriting answer. I wasn’t surprised by her dispiriting answer, but it got me thinking. My logic is simple: once you monetize your interest, the dynamic changes.

    Plus, as a novice, I know I need more “miles” behind the lens to build my credibility.

    To quiet her doubts, I told her I would need extra money to attend professional photography training and buy some professional but expensive equipment. Once she heard that, she shut up😅.

    A small Discovery

    After this small incident, I also reflected on the importance of making money with my interest. And I discovered a strange logic.

    If my dream is to be a photographer, what is the actual “dream”? Is it the reward (money/fame), or the action itself?

    After chewing on this for a day, I knew the answer – what truly matters to me is the activity itself, not the reward💰. Being able to help people take photos and record videos are enough to make me happy, and money does not matter. Appreciation from others can become a motivation, but the process itself is the core of my dream.

    Shift in attitude

    This shift has changed how I view all my ambitions. I used to want to be a writer to earn a living, but now I realize I just love expressing ideas and emotions through words. I don’t need the awards or the validation.

    I call this true love❤️.

    PS: I will make money from something that is not my interest, hahaha.

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  • Day 21:Things seem to be getting better?

    kauff kaufffffff kkkkkkafffffu! (coughing)

    Dummy’s challenge

    Latest Life Update:

    Received another phone call for interview from another company.

    I may need to see the doctor tomorrow. I am still coughing a lot.

    Although I am recovering, I still have to see my therapist. Realizing it may be a good opportunity to record some video clips and photos, I brought my camera with me.

    During my session, my therapist observed that my body posture became less grounded after reuniting with my family again. I told her that I had to shut down my senses to be sane in the household.

    My therapist told me that I have to move out as soon as possible. Both of us are very clear of the consequences if I go on living with my family. At last, she reminded me to create the calmly, worry-free mode I had in my mind.

    Just like the life in Laos🇱🇦.

    These are the photos I took before and after seeing my therapists. I don’t know why some photos look unclear 😭.

    This time, I experimented with a new angle – from bottom to top.
    The front face of the mini-bus.
    From the second floor.

    When I was heading towards the train station, I entered a garden and saw a middle-age man holding a camera. We were observing the old men who were playing Chinese Chess(XiangQi) against each other.

    The man told me he was from Belgium. He visited Sri Lanka and went to Hong Kong due to a flight delay. I was shocked when I heard him said,

    “Hong Kong is a place with amazing views. You see the street view!“

    The crowded commercial buildings? Or the clement forest? Undeniably, he was right. But it is not the full picture. When you have been facing the tall, lifeless buildings everyday, you won’t find them very pretty at all 😅.

    Not sure about which one is better.
    The tree in the corner of the city
    (Sighed)

    From these photos, you can see that I tried very hard to capture the view from the “bottom” angle. Some worked out, and most failed. It’s very difficult to get the full frame of the buildings. I think the causes are my techniques + equipments’ limitations.

    The most successful(?) attempt?
    ?????
    🤦‍♀️…
    The beam of life
    Try my best to find the best angle.
    Not the best, but not the worst.
    There are many beautiful paintings on the street.

    I then headed to a place to collect the tennis ball I left last Saturday. The host of the sharing session talked to me. She was very friendly and offered many tips on applying jobs for NGOs in Hong Kong. I am glad that I am able to meet people like her in my life. Her genuine sharing made me realize that I am not lagging behind.

    Free free to drop your comments or share your thoughts in the comment section. Looking forward to your feedback. 😃

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  • What you need is self-love, not romantic love

    The sun set in Laos

    This is my 51 st day in Laos, and I finally realized the biggest I have to learn in my life.

    When I woke up, the first idea popped up in my mind wasn’t about work or the sorrow of leaving my comfortable bed.


    I need self-love and self-respect, not romantic love💗.

    I need self-love and self-respect, not romantic love💗.

    I need self-love and self-respect, not romantic love💓.

    This sentence played for three times in my mind. Although my mind had just began its morning routine, it was chewing on this simple yet important sentence. It was an epiphany🤯!!!

    I suddenly realized the problems and troubles that happened to me was caused by the lack of self-love and self-respect. Even though I am living in a bigger house and have more freedom in my life, I haven’t fully got rid of my unhealthy habit. For instance, when I was sick, I didn’t listen to my body and went to work with horrible stomachache😫, headaches🥶 and diarrhea🤢.

    Ironically, even though I tried very hard to suppress the pain, I surreandered to my body before the end of the working hour. I left the office at 3pm and went on enjoying my “diarrhea journey🌊🌊🌊” in my cozy apartment.

    A few days later, I recovered, but I was exhausted. And I encountered some unpleasant things that tore my heart apart (When I figured out my crush lied to me about being single). However, after all these events, I learned the biggest lesson for me is how to listen to the voice in my heart and follow my intuition. If I know how to respect my feelings and ego, I probably wouldn’t fall in love with the wrong person again.

    At this moment I may not be able to treat myself as good as possible. But I can foresee that I will be the person that treat myself the best in this world🌍.

    So how is your thought on self-love? Share you opinions!😀

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