Life is full of possibilities and… unexpected accidents…
Being unemployed has made me wonder about the lifestyle I truly want. In these days, I’ve kept asking myself what makes me feel happy. All I can remember is the peaceful, quiet life I lived in Laos. Even though my job there was tedious and annoying, living alone enriched my soul 👻 and nourished my body.
In that apartment, I felt safe enough to be my real self. Compared to living with my family, I could spend time alone without worrying about interrupting anyone or triggering my parents. At that time, I thought I was living in paradise. Somehow, it was similar to entering Nirvana*, a state without any worries or negative emotions. But those moments didn’t last long. Soon after starting my second task, I returned to my anxious and stressful old self.=
*For those who don’t know, “Nirvana” refers to a state of enlightenment in Buddhism—the highest stage of spiritual freedom.
Until now, I’m still trying very hard to recreate those peaceful, worry-free moments in my life.
I probably will share more about my journey and my current progress on creating a blissful life.
Reality Check:
Apart from that, today I also realized I need to be more practical to reach my goals. In the morning, I joined a training session for the sport coach program. I overheard the coaches and social worker discussing the program’s details and development—they’d just received the second round of funding. When I heard this, I knew my plan wouldn’t work out: relying on slashing (multiple gigs) to earn a living wage. Even with high hourly pay, it doesn’t mean there are enough job opportunities for coaches. I nearly missed that point when planning my future. I must get a full-time job first.
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